I have family in Italy and I love visiting them when I can. One time, I spent a few nights in a monastery. Across the street from my room was an apartment building filled with local families. All of the windows were open one night because the weather was spectacularly beautiful.
As the golden magenta sunset gleamed down and warmed the old stone walls, I took in a deep breath to connect with the amazing energy that surrounded me. When suddenly, I heard –
“PIZZZZZZZAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!” cried a little boy’s voice directly across the small alleyway from me.
His cry shattered the peace and tranquility like a ton of bricks. And for the next two hours, he continued to cry for pizza in desperation.
It was amazing how much energy this small boy had. It was quite a hilarious mystery to me at the time because I was only 18 and at that point, it would be awhile before I had kids of my own.
Sometimes I think about this child and I compassionately and sweetly laugh at the thought of that night.
First of all, if any of you have toddlers, you have some sense of what this situation must have been like for his parents.
Like most toddlers, they want what they want when they want it. And they demand that the world around them comply.
As we mature and grow, we learn that the world doesn’t revolve around us. Sometimes other people’s plans or society’s rules are what we must follow at the time. And sometimes there just isn’t any pizza.
It doesn’t change that we want it, though. Sometimes all of us, even as adults, feel the way that toddler felt. We want something so much. It feels all consuming. We cry for it. We shout for it. We demand the world give it to us.
And sometimes, we get it.
How has that shown up in your life? After you’ve cried, you’ve pleaded, you’ve bartered, you’ve commanded, do you still end up wanting what you asked for? Does the energy feel a little bit disappointing when you finally receive it? Is it even at all what you truly wanted once you get your hands on it?
In my life, when I’ve done this, it’s never turned out to be fulfilling. Often times, it’s lead me to a rough curve in my path and I’ve had to walk my way back onto the right track.
Although frustrating and embarrassing, each of these times has made me more compassionate, more humble, more forgiving, and more aware. This is because I was able to see that what I wanted wasn’t truly meant for me in that moment. It wasn’t in my highest and best good.
But what matters is that after we make decisions like this, we learn from them and we grow to be better soul-centered people.
Sometimes, what we truly want is in our highest and best good. But how do we get what we want in a way that’s honest, authentic, and true? First, we have faith in God and Divine timing. Second, we check in with our intuition.
The next time you want something, take a moment to breathe, ground yourself, and connect with your insight. Check in. Is what you’re wanting right now truly for you?
Let go of what you want right now, for what you truly want.
There are so many wants in this world, and they disguise themselves beneath other desires. Sometimes that third cup of coffee you want is actually the desire for security in your job. That new dress you bought is a desire for approval. That vacation you so desperately want to take with your partner is truly a cry to the world for oneness.
The next time you find yourself wanting, ask yourself what this want is truly about. I have a feeling it’s more than just pizza.
Unconditional Love and Light,
Lauren
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