I grew up in a loving, supportive household with wonderful parents. And yet, something always felt missing. What was it? I wondered. Finally, at 30, I discovered it.
Joy.
My family had always been happy, friendly, welcoming, and kind. But joy was never something that felt present in our home or in our lives.
When I found my voice at 30, I asked my mom why this was. She was shocked at the question, and equally shocked that she had an answer: that’s how she was raised.
“Whenever my energy got too big,” she said, “or whenever I was too joyful, whether because I got a good grade in school or something wonderful happened to me, my mother would shut me down right away. She never allowed negativity in our house, but she also never allowed any joy. It was too much. Everything needed to be calm and neutral, at all times.”
I could definitely picture this. And I felt in my bones that this was true. It explained why whenever anything amazing happened to me and I became joyful, I suddenly felt unsafe. Suddenly I felt like I had to keep myself small. That made me feel undeserving and unworthy.
There is space for joy in your life, your heart, your mind, your home, your family, and all of your relationships.
If you feel a weakness to feeling or receiving joy, where is that weakness coming from? Is it past life religious institutions that told you joy was not godly? Is it from ancestors who believed work meant struggling? Is it from childhood experiences where you were told to sit down and be quiet at all times?
Wherever it’s from, it’s time to let it all go.
I encourage you to strengthen yourself to Joy. Feel it. Love it. Embrace it. Allow yourself to BE joyful. Welcome it into your life and witness the miraculous changes it brings.
When you have joy, you see beyond the everyday struggles, worries, exhaustion, sadness, and anger in the world. Joy can reach all of those areas and light them up. It can guide you on the path forward, through all the darkness, the fears, and the doubts. None of that stuff is real, but the Joy and the Unconditional Love beyond it is.
The next time you have doubts and worries, ask yourself:
- Could I allow myself to feel joy right now?
- What if my Joy is what keeps me safe?
Be joyful. Be you.
Unconditional Love and Light,
Lauren
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